a racing mind in late pregnancy

My mind and body are very much awake.

I feel wild with the energy to do something and at the same time sit still.

My appetite has subsided.

I'm very much aware of the feelings inside of me.

I twist my eyebrows.

I feel the push on my cervix grow stronger.

I sit straight up in bed.

I'm anxiously awaiting for the contractions to come.

I Google, "what do contractions feel like."

I walked for an hour and a half in the woods today. Toward the end of the walk I started seeing spots and became light headed. But at the same time, I felt so able, awake and alive.

The crisp tapping on the keyboard feels good on my fingers.

I wonder how I can calm down.

I wonder when he will come.